Parenting is hard. Let me say it again: PARENTING IS HARD!
I am weary today. I so long to reach a place where the incline isn't so steep, the rocks so rough, the wind so strong. I have walked this precarious precipice for days, weeks even. I long for a place of rest, a shallow refuge hollowed out in the wall of this mountain I am traversing. My body does not falter at the journey ahead as much as my mind and spirit do.
These are the times when I long for home.
These are the times I turn on the music and sing my prayers to my wise King.
These are the times I abandon everything else and lay prostrate at His feet.
These are the times I run to Him for His touch.
Then, it is at the time that I am renewed, refreshed, reminded that He has me...always.
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I am reading Resolution for Women, the book written as a companion to the movie Courageous. I'm devouring it, disciplining myself to consume one section at a time so as to allow the precept to take root in me. I want to grow into the woman God created me to be; I want to be worthy of the life He has blessed me with. I do not want to live my todays so desperately looking for better tomorrows that I forget to LIVE today. I want to be present in the NOW.
That being said, I am so grateful that God put the book in my life. I needed it last night. I need it today...to remind me that LOVE is tough but so worth it. To remind me that THIS is the journey...difficult or not. THIS is the place God put me on purpose...to do His good work in my household, in my workplace, in my friendships.
(And while I am eagerly looking forward to the day that teenage angst is over and done with, I also dread that very day.)
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